Don’t you wish sometimes you can simply hit “update” or “refresh,” and miraculously a bodily refresh would happen and you’re somehow rejuvenated with higher energy, a better outlook on life, etc.? That is the sum and substance of this personal update.

The last few months have been extremely hectic, more than I’ve ever experienced in my life. We found a place to buy; went through the entire mortgage/house-buying rigamarole; packed to move; painted, cleaned, spackled and repaired the old new place; moved; and have tried to continuously settle in ... all in the midst of the end-of-year hecticness of my job.
Happier moments among these are celebrating our friends’ little baby Eden’s first birthday last week (above photo) with the yummiest cupcakes (aside from my wife’s, of course) in the world.
Work is beyond belief. The expression goes, “you just can’t make this stuff up!” For a company that—as a non-profit—professes “publish[ing] works that further [the] University’s objective of excellence in research, scholarship, and education,” it is surprisingly more interested in profits more than any other company that I (and my coworkers who have been in publishing for years) have experienced, ever.
Baby continues to grow in wifey’s tummy. We are extremely blessed by this miracle: how else can you explain any conception, gestation, pregnancy and birth? We are very happy.
My wife has been amazing, carrying on with so much energy. Up until this week, even she was amazed at just how much she’s been able to continue doing, including working at her job, which involves testing recipes in the kitchen as well as attending various food-related press events throughout the city. God gave me a very strong wife.
Photography continues to be only a hobby. Having spent only 30-45 minutes on anything photo related in the last month, I would say it’s even a fringe hobby. I wish it weren’t so.
Physically, I’ve been pretty beaten up. I have not been able to recover from the exhaustion of the last few months from work and house preparation and moving, having lost 14 pounds in the space of a month. The physical toll has led to a melancholy (protected post; if you see it, then you’re on my list) that is indescribable. And, in the last 3 weeks, just as work stresses continue unabated into the new fiscal year (with even more demands), odd maladies have haunted me: 3 stys in both eyes, a severely bruised (perhaps broken) middle left toe, week-long migraines (past 2 weeks), extended periods of extreme fatigue and (this weekend) a sinus cold.
Church has been a conundrum of immeasurable proportions. I point to someone’s recent blog entry [link removed by request] that only partially expresses but is competely on-point about what my thoughts have been. Remember one of my prior entries about obeying and submitting? I have been desperately trying to do that for some time, despite what my gut has been telling me. But, at what time, at what point does it become too much? What if you feel that leaders are no longer concerned about God? Is it time to stop obeying and simply leave? So many have done so already. My church is away for our annual Memorial Day retreat this weekend. We were supposed to go, but when I saw the schedule while putting together the retreat’s booklet, I was severely dismayed with the concentration and focus on “activities” and “events” which were not what I had been yearning for in a retreat (something I had been desperate for in the last few months).
We are extremely blessed by what God has done in our lives. Yes, there are many, many trials going on right now—and honestly, sometimes I wonder when I will get that breather to recoup—but persevere I must and trust in God. He has gotten me this far.
Please pray for me (and us) when you get the chance. Thank you.
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EDIT: 5/25/2008 @ 2:59 p.m. — “Ask and you shall receive...”
This morning, visiting Grace Redeemer Church in Hackensack, we listened to guest speaker Pastor Joe Novenson preach on Jacob from GENESIS 32-22–32. What Novenson spoke about regarding the teaching and brokeness of God’s immeasurable grace was exactly what my empty heart needed to hear. He pointed us to PSALM 51, which says, in part:
Have mercy on me, O God, according to your unfailing love; according to your great compassion blot out my transgressions. Wash away all my iniquity and cleanse me from my sin. For I know my transgressions, and my sin is always before me. Against you, you only, have I sinned and done what is evil in your sight, so that you are proved right when you speak and justified when you judge. Surely I was sinful at birth, sinful from the time my mother conceived me. Surely you desire truth in the inner parts; you teach me wisdom in the inmost place. Cleanse me with hyssop, and I will be clean; wash me, and I will be whiter than snow. Let me hear joy and gladness; let the bones you have crushed rejoice [emphasis added]. Hide your face from my sins and blot out all my iniquity. Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me. Do not cast me from your presence or take your Holy Spirit from me. Restore to me the joy of your salvation and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me. ... You do not delight in sacrifice, or I would bring it; you do not take pleasure in burnt offerings. The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit; a broken and contrite heart, O God, you will not despise. ...
PSALM 51 (1–17) (NIV)
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