April 25, 2008

  • Morning

    It’s funny how quickly time slips by.

    I had just woken up a little while ago. It was 4:55 a.m., and I just dreamed that I was valedictorian in my law school class. Except that my class was the size of my grade-school graduation class and we were in a small auditorium with children running all around. I wasn’t wearing what I intended to wear that day (must have been from another dream), which had the notes for my speech in the breast pocket, and so I was feverishly digging through this very laptop to find a copy of my speech. Oddly, I remember the elements of my speech going through my head vividly as I went through the Windows folders looking for the speech. It was so real to me, and yet so startling.

    Startling because I was once again in law school. Even though it was a dream about graduation, anything relating to law school has become so shocking and dark to me. Everything about law school is tinged with a sense of loss...of years, of opportunities, of tragedy. So every time I’ve had a dream about it, I wake with a sense of being lost. That was unsettling, awake at 4:55 a.m., just having dreamed I was back in law school again.

    I looked at our desktop computer in the dining room, which we had left on last night...along with the lights in the dining room and other bedroom. We had passed out just after praying on our bed. The window in the living room was still wide open from the previous night of cleaning and settling in, and the chill wasn’t uncomfortable but was the wonderful chill of a summer morning after a long, hot summer day. Except this isn’t summer yet, is it? It’s already too hot for me in April.

    I turned off the computer, and sat down on a seat nearby. Seeing a copy of Vanity Fair next to me, I picked it up and thumbed through it. It was delivered late this month because I forgot to change the address before moving, and I hadn’t read through most of it yet. It usually takes me a month to read through all the articles, and it’s one of my more enjoyable reads through a month. I looked at the clock and it was already 5:15 a.m.

    How time flies.

Comments (5)

  • I woke up to a bolt of lightening this am early. I read the Reader,s Digest. There have been alot of strange dreams around our house lately  involving war and cats. Our midwest Ohio area and Indiana had 18 tiny eathquakes in 3 days last week. Most were not felt but one shudder knocked a storage room hangup rack clothing down that was upstairs

  • time passes by too fast =(

  • just wait til the baby comes, then you'll really see how time flies!

  • If the only reason you went to law school was so that you could meet God, would it have been more worthwhile?  I hope so...you met Simone because of church!  More of a reason to thank God for bringing you to law school so that your life took a wonderful turn and you now know the Great One!  The years weren't waste, but rather your time with God was gained.  Think positive  .

  • dreams like that tend to freak me out! and i am always shocked at how fast time flies in the am when i'm at the computer. i can't log on when the mornings when i'm working or i'd be late. :) and those are great band choices too! :)

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